So today i got to see my old best friend that i haven't seen in like forever!!  And it made my day!  He always makes me laugh and we always have so much fun together...when we were in 10th grade we went on a snowboarding trip with 3 other friends and they were there also!  it was one of the best times I have had in along time.  The only bad thing was when I went wakeboarding and sprained my knee.  That sucked.  But I miss him sooo much and I really wish that things would go back to the way they used to be.  But I guess thats not going to happen ever again, or at least not anytime soon.  I miss him already.

Current Mood: drained

So I went to a club on Thursday, with my friend Dominique and a guy I met Chris.  We had a lot of fun...I think.  Well at least I did.  I have been short on money really bad lately.  I went to the new church finally, it was decent, but the music was boring today, so that was gay.  Degrassi has had marathons on like crazy and i love it!!  I have been working my fricken ass off @ work and don't like it anymore...but if thats what it takes to make money I suppost I have too.  This one really super hot guy came into my work tonight and he talked to me...hot guys never talk to me cause I'm not cute or hot or w/e guys want these days...ohh well it was pretty sweet!  The tigers were sucking it up so I just shut it off!  Fuck!  I have to work on Sunday, Wensday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.   I HATE IT!!!!  I want a job that I acctually Like!  I want to move downstate so bad too!  But I don't want to have strict rules I'm fricken 19 years old I don't think that I need to have a babysitter!!!  Why can't everyone leave me alone before I scream!!!!  My mom even grounded me from my phone and car!  Come on!! 

Current Mood: crappy

Alright.  So I'm sitting here cause I have been thinking again.  I know thinking is not my greatest thing in life, but you still have to do it.  So here it goes.  I have been so called "lonely" these past couple of weeks.  I'm tired of it.  I guess what I'm saying is I want to start going on dates again.  I think I can do it without ruining things.  I'm soo picky though, thats the thing, if I don't think their cute and funny and blah blah blah...then I won't go out with them.  Maybe it's a good thing.  IDK.  So I'm going to try to do that.  Then also I am going to find a job down in saginaw ASAP.  So that way I can finally move in my little place down in Saginaw and start a good job and go to school.  I finally got all of my classes ready to transfer to Central.  MSU is out of the question now because I can't afford it anymore, even if family did help, I don't want it cause I want to be a big girl and do it all on my own.  Then once everything gets finalized for that I'm moving to Alabama or North Carolina or Georgia, which ever I feel like at the time and get a job down there.  I'm trying to make new friends but I just can't do it cause I can't open up to people which is a  huge problem.  Which is weird because i can talk to total strangers on here and give them my life story but not in person....hmm I have some serious issues.  I have now drank in a week which is a achievment I have been trying to full fill for a long while now and finally have done so.  I'm missing Todd cause he hasn't come home for 2 weeks now, I know that he has his job and house and everything up there, but I'm down here and expect a friend to see another friend, but I guess that is down the tubes.  I've been dressing emo again, which most of my friends consider it a bad thing because they are all holister and w/e.  But I feel most comfortable this way so why can't they apreshiate it?  I need to get new friends as I said but it's hard cause I'm "shy".  don't know how to get over it....if you have any advise please give.  I wish Delta had a bachelors degree so that I can stay here forever but they don't so that makes my life suck cause I love it there soo much.  I want dodgeball to start pretty soon because i love that soo much too.  I guess I'm probably boring anyone that is reading this, I don't think anyone does anyways...but ohh well.  Sorry for taking up your time with my boring so called life. 

Current Mood: annoyed

Okay...So today started off okay.  Then it just got worse as it went along as usual.  My sister bitched all day long, let alone my mom bitched too.  My sister wore my brand new leather shoes out in the mud, why she would wear mine, who the fuck knows.  So I decided to wear her clothes to work.  and I make pizzas and stuff.  So you can imagine how dirty thoughs got...ohh well shouldn't of wore my shoes.  But guess who gets into trouble.  ME!  of course I fucking hate this family and want to move asap but can't until I get some shit together and get a job down state and all of this bullshit.  Of course I could always commit suicide, thats always a open option haha.  j/k but if they do piss me off anymore I swear to God I will just to make their world a world of hurt...  Yes, I'm a bitch.
Thats all for  now I suppose.  Until my bullshit life tomarrow.  I need to start making new friends downstate too.

Current Mood: pissed off

So I was up until 4 in the morning excited for today!!  Because today at 1 O'clock I got the tattoo I have been wanting forever now!  I just went away and did it how exciting is that!  Anyhow, this is going to be a short entry, I'll put the picture up because my g-parents are coming here.  so l8erz

Current Mood: excited

Alright this is my first journal entry, and instead of taking my frustration out other ways I'm taking it out on here, and also stating my good days if i have any.
This was my cousin Jessie's idea, who by the way just go married this weekend!  (Congrats)!
This jounal can be very brutal, and disturbing.  so i advise if you have a week stomach and hate people who have problems or "issues".  (Don't Read)
So I warned everyone....  But no seriously, i have plenty of good solid fun days also and if you read thoughs you will want to be me. haha  thats how fun I can have.
I also have myspace which my name is "*ali*".
and facebook as allie miller at delta.
I would really appreshiate advise from anyone who will give it to me cause I have been to several I mean SEVERAL counselors and psyciatrists who couldn't help me....which sucks but hey!  thats me!
ohh yeah.
I'm Bipolar.

Current Mood: calm